In the midst of thinking of a tragedy averted, all those years ago, I am still left wondering now of the truth of it all. I can't sleep because my mind is racing, triggering raw emotion, and in the end there will still be no answer.
Right after it happened there was secrecy and innuendo, the spin zone was in full effect. Even I spun something in my mind to stay sane, and make everything all right. Had to keep going, pushing forward, moving on up,on to the next one. A way after the fact offer of some mental guidance came too late, the world and I had already moved on. Really though, since I'm writing this now, I didn't really move on. I just packed that bag and I still carry it with me.